For you

Dear You,

  Before I met you, I was already certain with one thing. That I will never want a boyfriend in my entire life. This decision was probably my most serious and most sure decisions I have ever made. I mean, with what happened to me in my past, I would never be excited to let a man get close to me.

  But then destiny played with me. It made you cross my path (well, not literally. But you know what I mean).  How we met was never a traditional "boy meets girl" or "girl meets boy" kinda story. I actually thought (and still think) it's weird to meet someone who's halfway across the world from me and still develop a chemistry (or however you'd call it) after a few chats. (Remember our first date? HAHA. When you fixed my laptop?) Yeah, I still remember that time. It was crazy that I trusted you soooo easily! That was really not  me. And, mister just so you know, I'm a person who loves her sleep (more than anything else in this world eventhough I know we met when I was up doing work late at night. Haha. What an irony). But with you, it has been really easy to forget of my need to sleep. It's really scaring me now. Who knows what else I could be sacrificing for you? The scare's doubled.

  You don't know how much emotions you have stirred up in me and you probably will never find out (I'm hoping you will not find out). I never thought I'd be longing for that "someone" in my life. Or, in my case, to yet again have someone. To have someone who could and would try to keep up with me (even when I start to be A LITTLE bitchy), to understand me, to be patient with me, to everyday have good laughs with me and to be with someone who can oversee my messy looks, my (sometimes) bitchy attitude, my sweet smile (I know you will attest to this, but this is my blog. So, maybe try to support me on this), someone who would accept me in spite and despite of what's happened to me in my past and someone to be with when I am now trying to figure out my way through this world.

  It must be crazy to feel this but I melt in your eyes. How could that even be possible? We communicate through the help of Skype. Believe me when I say this, I have never been more thankful for the gift of technology until the day I met you. (cheesy, I know. HAHA). Now, going back to your eyes, every time I see you flash a smile, or smirk or put on that serious look, your eyes say a lot and it just makes me crazy deep inside. Seeing you and talking to you every night stir up emotions that I have long suppressed. Why did you have to remind me I once had those emotions? That I once had a share of those good times?

  It was so hard for me to admit how much time I spend thinking about you and missing you. Am I crazy? Or am I realllllly crazy? Maybe, I am. Maybe, I am not. For what it's worth, I hope you know how much inspiration you give me.

  Someday, I will get the chance to touch you, to hug you, to feel you near me, and to just simply feel your warmth. I can't wait till I have that chance. But for now, I hope and pray you will not get tired of this (of me) because I know I will not be tired of staying up late just to talk to you, P................

Sincerely,
A girl with so much to say........

-=AnonymousGirl=-