Ever had someone tell you, "Wow, you look inspired." or a question like, "You look different, what's the reason behind the smile?" Those questions though unintentionally, it struck me. How could they have possibly sensed this awesome feeling I have inside? Could it be that my smile is wider than it used to be? Or my eyes, were they too much of a giveaway? Or is it my laugh, did it become too cheeky nowadays? Either I find out or not, it will not matter.
People find inspirations in art, nature, loved ones, sometimes even in books. But are there some that finds inspiration online? No, maybe not. Or maybe there are. What happened to me, I don't want to regard it as a curse, though every single day and night I talk (or chat) with him, I am more and more convinced that my patience is really at its best now. Don't take it the wrong way, I do see him as a gift. He makes me (and made me) laugh, he managed to knock some sense in me (when I was planning to a adopt a 16 day old infant). Let me give you a brief look at myself, I am stubborn (so he claims I am). But, anyway I believe you already get my point.
What we have going on is somewhere between "it's complicated" and "I like you, I hope there's something we can do about it". There's so much I wish we could do. So much that it makes me wish so hard that he was here, right beside me.
I am dying to ask, can't I do something about us? :(
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